As the days pass, I’ve come to the realization that I am a shell. A shell? That’s the best way I can put it. I go about my day-to-day and live my life like everyone else does, and to a certain extent, I am happy. But what I’ve realized is that journaling comes in waves, and I seek an outlet to discuss my life for myself, and if anyone cares, for them to see what mine is like as well. I really love learning about people and their own realities, but am quite the hypocrite when I don’t share mine. With that being said, this will be my first daily entry where I will word vomit my day and also incorporate what I have learned. It may change or develop, or it might dissolve. But for now, this feels right.

Now that you know the gist, let me introduce you to me. I’m not quite sure if I should give my name just yet, but I am a 25-year-old woman who lives in Northern California. I moved here from Los Angeles when I was 23 for college and now work up here full time. I am always feeling a constant battle between living here and being back closer to family and friends. I love it here, but it feels like those relationships where it’s the right person, wrong time. This place is the right place, but right now is the wrong time to be living here. Family is most important to me and who I feel closest to. Some hobbies I enjoy are reading, learning something new, watching reality TV and heartfelt anime, and spending time with friends.

I would typically describe myself as an introvert who can switch on the extrovert personality. I can only have that personality for a bit before I completely drain my battery and go into a hermit shell, which is the best when I have good food and a cozy bed.

I don’t have social media, as that gives me such anxiety. I have a full-time career and nanny on the side. The nannying is for one family, whom I adore, that I could not bear to say goodbye to when I graduated and accepted a full-time job. The kid I nanny is turning 4 in a few weeks, and he is the smartest child I have ever nannied for. Ooh, perfect time to go into my background a bit more. I have babysat/nannied since I was 13. Growing up homeschooled exposed me to large families where it felt like a community and everyone watched out for each other.

It is time for me to wrap this up. Adding to this felt easy and like a breeze. If there is anything you would like to ask or suggest, please do (within reason).

One thing I have learned today is to just relax and start the idea that has been in your head. There are no rules or limits to starting an idea. But this is not to say that anything is attainable; just if you have had an idea and want to pursue it, take a small step like background research for 10 minutes one day. It doesn’t have to be much or perfect because after reading this, I know this isn’t, but it made me happy.

The end. 🙂